i'm so gonna miss these guys. those times that we spent together cam-whoring. proclaiming to the world that we are the top of the crop. lesser time to mingle now. but who knows what the future holds.

anyways, project hope was kinda disappointing. i mean the performances wasn't that incredible. not boomz enough. except for the indonesian idol winner. she got great vocals. the one from thailand is utter rubbish. she can't even hold a note properly. sarah aqilah was another disappointing story. to think that someone who has fabulous vocals get dumped into a mix of singers is all wrong. she should get the limelight alone. but anywho, the donations that flows in is mega. it shows that no matter what the economy might be, sympathy and generosity still remains undisturbed. kudos.

so now i'm in a controversy where my job is not fulfiling and im on the hunt for a new one. just the thought of doin something that i love without the depression of retailing is so overwhelming that i might burst into a galaxy of fashionista where i was naturally fed and bred well enough. tempting. very tempting. freelancing ain't gonna put food on tables and pay bills. it just burn a hole in your pocket and i can't afford that. responsibilities is the backbone of my life now. presentation comes later.

moving on with life of the birds and the bees, i totally agree with fad about abstinence but then again envied the people who got a shoulder to lean on. friends and family can only do so much. but the body and soul needs more than that. well, will cross the bridge when i reach it. guess it's under construction now. patience a virtue.

till i get what i want, this is my unscripted rants...

toodles

izhan shah

p.s: wonder what the future holds....