somethng for tht someone:
I've got to see you
Wherever you are
And I've got to be there
I'm wishing on stars
I've got to reveal what's inside of my heart
But the words escape me
And I'm paralyzed
So helpless when I
Look into your eyes
And how I wish you only knew
What I feel inside for you
You probably haven't got a clue
But I wish you knew
How I like you
Honestly I know it's silly of me
To want you so badly
But keep it concealed
See my inferiority complex kicks in
And the words escape me
And I'm paralyzed
So helpless when I
Look into your eyes
Even though I try I can't let go
Something in your eyes
Captured my soul
And every night I see you inmy dreams
You're all I know
I can't let go
Somethng for dphat:
I can't wait, wanna see, how this crew is gonna be,
Just a touch away, from this feeling that is here to stay,
We can make it last forever baby,
our love will stand the test of time,
and in the middle of our world,
i'll be waiting for you to be all mine,
We're walking on sunshine,in the middle of the night,
and it feels like we're somewhere above the sky,
Take my hand, and close your eyes,say the sweet little things,
that make me cry,catch my tears with a kiss,
these special moments do exsist,
It'll take much more thatn a life time baby,
for this love to end, and it feels so good to know,
that we are here in love again.take a chance,
and try love baby,No I'm not kiddin now,til,
you tell me that you'll be in my life, until the end of time
for ANTO:
Goodbye's the saddest word I'll ever hear
Goodbye's the last time I will hold you near
Someday you'll say that word and I will cry
It'll break my heart to hear you say goodbye
for IFA:
Too much is on your mind
Gotta let it go
Can't worry all the time
Just let it flow
You say you need a break
There's nothing I can do
Sitting here listening to youBaby,
what's this you tell me
Things ain't been goin' your way
Just take it from me
It's gonna be alright
for frazze:
If you're lonely
And need a friend
And troubles seem like
They never end
Just remember to keep the faith
And love will be there to light the way
Anytime you need a friend
I will be here
You'll never be alone again
So don't you fear
Even if you're miles away
I'm by your side
So don't you ever be lonely
Love will make it alright
for FADLEE:
Whenever I'm down,
I call on you my friend
A helping hand you lend, in my time of need so I
I'm calling you now, just to make it through
What else can I do, don't you hear my plea
Friends may come and friends may go
But you should know that
That I've got your back, it's automatic
So never hesitate to call
Cuz I'm your sister and always for ya and I
Friends are there through thick and thin
Well I've been told that
And I believe that it's automatic
Call me when you need a friend
Cuz I'm your sister and always for ya
for AYUN n FADZ n KIDD:
Count on me through thick and thin
A friendship that will never end
When you are weak, I will be strong
Helping you to carry on
Call on me, I will be there
Don't be afraid
Please believe me when I say
Count on...
for AMIR:
One day in your life
You'll remember a place
Someone touching your face
You'll come back and you'll look around
You'll remember the love you found here
You'll remember me somehow
Though you don't need me now
I will stay in your heart
And when things fall apart
You'll remember one day
When you find that you're always lonely
For a love we used to share
Just call my name, and I'll be there.
to evryone tht matters to me:
I'll be the bridge you can use to
Whenever you need to
Get over problems in your way
And I will pick you up
Over mountain tops
Together we'll walk over the bridge
There's a place where you can go
Lay your head down comfortable
And it's always there for sure
Dont you know
And it comes as no surprise
The mountains that you must climb
Sit back don't run away have no shame
There's no wrong
There's no right
It's only you and how you your treat life
See baby if the road you choose
Dont work out for you You know
I'll be your rescue, Suga Suga
Like a diamond shining bright
See you are young and flying high
Big dreams of having thangs, in your eyes
You thought it was making cash
But uh that small means never last
How'd ya throw it all away here me say
Let me take yo far away
Be sure to find your destiny
And you know without a doubt
That I would be your bridge out
I'll be there
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had our session of no holds barred. it wasnt tht much of a qn. yet it wasnt tht dull either. it was short sharp n direct. but stil, certain secrets hav to b kept safe. in order to not split. i was taken aback by certain qn. i wasnt ready. im sorie ayun if in anyway i make u feel afraid. coz wateva ur feelin is wat im feelin at e same moment. honestly, we r not ready.
so it was more of a relationshp we had rather thn frenshp. we bonded big time now. we r like family. honestly, i wil kip thnkng abt u ppl whn im not seeing u guys. thts how much i care love n treasure. u may not feel e same way towards me but thts ok...theres otha thngs to thnk abt rather thn dphat.
seriously, relations is a very strong action. u cant live wif or wifout it. its both advantage n disadvantage. in cn cheer u up at tha same tym bring u dwn in a snap. but wats life wifout relations. it makes u whu u r, ryte? so theres a few relations in my life i wana share.....
FAMILY:
im blessed wif family tht cares n love me. im blessed to hav their support in anythng i do. but im not gonna deny it tht sumtyms its a pain whn thy r too concern tht thy r holdin u back frm not doin wat ur heart tells u too. its always do anythng thy would do n dont do anythng thy wouldnt. but this is me, i'd rather experience it hands on thn read abt it. its betta tht way. how can u tell tha candy is sweet wifout tasting it but by just listen to wat ppl say ryt? evry1 got different taste. but thn again, kudos to my mum specially for bein there for me all this time. i dunno whts gona happen to me whn ur not ard. u r tha light of my life. i love u so much.
WORK:
ive been thru all kinds of job scope. frm f&b to sales. be it cashiering waiterin tailorin dressin stylin evrythng. ive had a fair share of evrythng. frm entertaining locals to as far as ppl frm kawazulu. im sure no1 eva heard of tht plc. but yeah it exist n tha ppl r so cute. cute in a naive way. thy actualli measure their shoe size using their arm wifout even trying it. i knw its scientifically correct but who does it? n thy tip you by giving long hugs n a kiss on tha forehead as a bonus if thy feel u to a certain level of comfortability. sweet nah? ive even tried nitelife. frm factory to pubs. trust me if ur not strong enuff n u love ur beauty sleep n youthful looks, its not ur kinda cuppa tea.
FRIENDS:
honestly. i dont choose my frens. im open to anyone. i make frens wif evry1. my frens ranges frm the normal boys n girls to the abnormal(disabled lah)...oso ive frens whu r homeless, homewrecker, gays, lesbians, tranvestites, transexuals, prostitute, mamasan, gigolo, bitches n sluts, bimbo, himbo, gangsters, nerdies, rejects, foreigners, cleaners n what hav ya. i hav all. coz i dnt see tha purpose of choosing ppl. if back to basic, evryhtng is abt u. mix ard wif evryone anyone but dont follow the bad aura of thm. thts my philosophy. but frens r juz frens. thy come n go. to those whu stand by me thru thick n thin, thy r my loved ones. bcoz unlike thm, frens r like biscuits, sekejap ada sekejap takda. but dont get me wrong, i appreciate each one of thm but selected ones stay in my heart.
LOVE:
ok heres the longest chapter. hehe. the selected ones im proudly to say r my darling babe, wanie, my rasta gyal, sara, my bitch, fadlee n my new love, d'phat. seriously it wasnt easy to b a part in my heart ok. it needs love concern caring n sharing(macam family advertisement plak). but firstly, it needs trust. the strongest word. wifout trust, we have nothing. how can u love sum1 if u dnt trust them ryt darls? but trust dont com tht easy. u hav to earn it. n trust me to earn sumones trust is a truthful job n u have to b trustworthy to gain tht trust (geddit?)...wateva u do dont break it coz it wil not come in easy the next time, it wil be harder thn u cn eva imagine. its not tht sum1 dnt trust me, its tht i dnt trust tht sum1. sum1 frm my past. my mum always say, to love n to trust is easy but to maintain n enriched it, its a task. its neva ending.
STEADY:
this is the hardest. seriously, for now, i dnt c myself bein in a relationshp. i want to but i just cant. im scared. scared of losin. scared of betrayal. scared of hatred. scared of evryhtng thts hurtful. only a couple of my loved ones knw wht ive gone thru. its so hurtful, i try to put it in word. so here goes,....
1) i used to go out wif this girl. we r good friends. evrythng was gg fine till one day shes been skippin classes n ignoring me. i thot i was losing my gal. wasnt i good enuff? wasnt i fair? but it turns out tht i wasnt wat she really wants. i was too decent for her. to her i was a naive. but to me shes a bitch. coz u knw y, i gotta knw frm her father tht shes pregnant n she claimed it was mine. how cn tht be whn i dnt even touch her? its lame tht we r steady but the most i went was a peck on tha cheek. how cn she get pregnant thru tht ryt? so i make a police report, it was a court case, i demand a DNA test so to proof it wasnt mine, heck i was only 14. i hav a bright future ahead of me. afta a 33 days of hearing, e truth is out, it wasnt mine but my best bud. i was devastated. it was a triangle. tha bitch wnt thru me to gt to my best bud. i had a breakdown. frm tht moment i dnt trust any1. 6 yrs lata, i bummed into her, to knw tht shes nw a widow. its a retribution. i wasnt proud neither was i sorry. what i told her was i forgave u but i dnt forget. there goes a year of relations wif her.
2) i moved on. i cnt trust girls no more. its not bcoz of girls i turn gay ok. i was already a bi tht point of time, i was stil on a voyuer to recognise myself. but to know i had to go thru shits to knw where i stand now is painful. thts whn i decided to love me more. i was in sec3 thn. but i knw this guy back thn whn i was in sec2. hes my senior. 2 yrs older. a very nice guy. i had tha hots for him but it was just a crush. until we attend a malay camp thts whn i gotta b his buddy. got to knw him betta. hell yeah hes so fine. for sum1 whus 17, hes like a 25 yrs old guy kinda mindset. the last nyte of camp, he was no where to be found, i went searching. turns out hes in tha basha, crying his heart out. consoled him. found out his girlfren(of tha same clas) dumped him for his bestfren. upon hearing, i cried too. it was like a blast from tha past. i knw wat he was feeling. we ended up console each otha. it was one of the most heartwreckin nyte ive eva faced. thts whn we bcame closer. more lyke bestfren. we would practically do evrythng together. play n study. he was my inspiration. vice versa. but i knw it wont go any further coz hes like supa str8. hes cool abt my sexuality. but there was tymes whn i get jeloz coz he cnt stop talkng abt girls. geez~ imagine how red my years were. it was bleeding. thn, out of no where, thru our late nyte conversation, he broke tha news tht he will b in tha army tha next day(graduatd lah, im lyk sec4 liao~) i was disappointed coz im lyk the last prsn to knw. i hung up tha fon immediatly. thts whn he send me sms n say "b tha light of my life" those 6 words make me smile. i had him. but to my surprise, his family knw it too. mak~ malu sak kiah. thn i got a call frm his mom saying tht she neva seen her son so happy n contented. his mom cried n was bein thankful. i cried for bein accepted n appreciated. how open was their family tht struck me? i didnt knw it existed in a muslim community. so there we r like samson n delilah, romeo n juliet, bonnie n clyde. but we r a closet case ok. whn we go out on a date, its like bestfren day out. no one can tell. it went on for 3 yrs. (gawd im like crying typin this. ugh my keyboard is so flooded). so like thy say all good things wil cum to n end. he wasnt honest. he had an illness. he had a hole in his heart. as big as a 50cent coin. he didnt share wif me his grieve n i wasnt suspecting anythng. duh~ he ws an athelete. it was on our 3rd anniversary tht i got to knw. the day b4, he sounded normal, he was all excited to celebrate. he wanted it to happen at his house. it was his choice. the theme was all-white. it was to be celebrated wif his family. i was ecstatic. he even got me cool threads frm LV. on tha day, i was awoke by the sound of doorbell only to b welcomed by a noel delivery man. it was 99 white roses wif a red card saying 'you r the light of my life'. i went to freshen up n ready to go. reached, i ws shocked to c e number of people arrived. cool~ all white(i told myself). i had the roses in my hand. but thn sumthng struck me...wheres the music, laughter n runabout kids? y is evry1 so quiet? thts whn my heart beats fast, his elder sis saw me. i saw tears in her eyes. she came to me n hugged me like mad. i was numbstruck. wat happen? she only whispered..."dia dah pergi..." i was stil confused. thts whn i saw his mom, she came to me n hugged me too. she breakdown. she too whispered "dia dh pergi..." by now i got the message. i force myself to break free frm the hugs. i wanted to ran away. my arm was grabbed by his father..begging me not to leave..to perform his last wish..to hav me kissed on his forehead. but i cnt...i juz cnt. i pulled away...ran home. my famiy was away at thailand. i locked myself in my room. i called his hp. it was switched off, i left a voice msg tellin him tht his prank is rude n not funny at all. it was all such a cliche. evry1 dressed in white wif me having white roses. its too much. i cnt take it. thts whn i got a call frm his brotha tellin me tht hes gone. for good. forcin me to c him last time. i cnt. cnt even put myself together. i breakdown. i cried so much till i hav no tears to cry. i was down wif high fever. locked, alone in my room for 3 days. hes gone out of my life...
3) i tried to move on but i cnt, the best reason i cn give to my peers n family, i was stress n tired. it went on for a few months til i met wanie. she gave me a new lease of life. shes my bestfren til now. bcoz of her i was ready to face tha world agn. told her evryhtng abt me. thn i had a big assignment. it was fashion week. i had to run a versace show. thts whn i met julio. he was my 1st crush afta the late bf. he ws mr nice guy. but it didnt went far coz he only stay in spore for 6 wks. by thn it was over. but it was a nice 6 wks.
4) anotha fashion show, thts where i met this arabic model. mr crazy. supa irritating. cnt stand him. but very concern. to make it short, hes so lyk my bf. but it went dwn tha drain quickly even b4 u can say my name coz hes lyk gettin married soon n worst he got tha nerve to invite me. so much for tellin me tht im his life. fucka. hated him so much. but wht hurt me most, i was bein too ignorant n selfish tht whn i had n invitation frm his wife to come visit him in london where evryhtng will b paid for, i turn it dwn. flat. not knowing tht it wil be tha last tym i heard frm thm. he died. stomach cancer. it was 13th jan. i went berserk. it was supposed to be the most exciting day for me coz phat inc was born n i hav to fight the tears in me to face thm wif a happy face. tht explains me bein a grumpy person, ifa. i had my reasons.......
its not lyk im living in a facade. its tht i dnt wana share. i do. but its too sad to talk abt. so i type it dwn. i want my new love, dphat, to knw. especially tht sum1, whu wanted to knwevry1 in dphat well. i hope i ans frazze qns, i hope tht we stay togehter. no one hav to walk out. please~ thts y i kept sayin tht i keep fallin for tha wrong person. i dnt want this. i dnt dserve it. but wat the heck whn tha feeing is there, its juz there. i had to fight it to stay strong. thts y yest, anto qns abt whu i like, i cnt ans. coz i knw tht person wnt b tht strong to face it. he mayb defensive but hes too soft. i dnt want 2 break any bond i had wif u ppl. thts y he will only knw it whn i wil do tha talkng wic wil only happen whn either we split, hes attached or married or whn i thnks hes ready to face it. wateva happen yest, will remain yest ya. no blurping. to bad to those whu cnt stay or attend. i bliv it will make us 8 bond stronger thn b4. juz remember aint no mountain high enuff aint no river wide enuff to keep me frm u.
i think i talk too much. cya dalrs on mon,
toodles
mizbithaqueen
p.s: eventhou ur more open now, i still feel ur not bein total honest. but its ok. atleast my struggle of tryng to knw u paid off. but now i will try to make tht feelin for u die. its wats best for tha group n maself. pray for u the best to happen. i bliv in the sayin, if u love somebody let thm go n if thy come back they r urs to keep.
p.s.s:
darl anto, dont leave. m here for u.
sweety fadz, u rawk sista.
cute ifa n ayun, keep bein tha heart n soul of dphat
baby frazze, ur not alone, we r here for u.
sugar amir, thnk u for trusting me.
abang kidd, heehehe...ur so cool
my bitch fad, u r my betta half...bukan matayak ha...hee
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Thursday, December 28, 2006
gawd...its been raining non stop for days..hmm..agaknya tuhan kesian kn hamba2 nya tak...yelah nk kasi tsunami di jadikan hujan...haiz..
ive said it b4 bt i wil say it agn. me n fad has been facing a certain problem...always fall for the wrong person ryt...well theres anotha soul tht falls in our category too. but hey dnt fret aaight...its not tht bad..it cums n goes..the teruk part is we get to c tht prson almost evryday n hav to overcome certain feelings n play plastic...so its anotha task for us.
so im stuck at home yest. it was raining n stil is, n im left wif not much money. tunggu si yusof transfer ntah biler...klau slalu msg tk sedap hati kn but its my money...so m kinda stuck for a mo..
got a call frm fadz askin me to cum dwn lepaking wif thm at tamp...the fon went passing ard..to frazze elmo n anto..heh..penat cek xplain kt smua org yg cek tkda duit nk kluar..ada patut di suruh naik cab turun...yelah kata frazze n elmo dorang rindu mautz...ada gytu...mcm baru smalam jumpa gytu kan..di sambungkan crita katanya diva tkda tk fun...ahakz...cutelahkn. thn i ask thm sape2 lagi turun...kata ifa n ayun otw..
ouhouh...btw ada org tu emo pasal tkde org ajak dia..ahakz..pas tu member emo mautnya..khehehe. kekek sak cek kt sini pe'ah oi.
aniwaes, smalam fad n amir g marina jumpa e organizer for 15 jan. kata fad its kinda lame ar...coz he felt like he went there alone. hahaha. i knw hw u feel. yelah fad kata the oni thing tht came out frm his mouth is juz hi-bye. haiz nk buat camne...member dh camtu..sabak lah...lama2 dia ok nyah oi. he said hes lyk tht but if i remember correctly, whn i 1st gotta knw him, tk mcm gytu pon orgnya...nk tipu tk tau tipu...bad actor...shud learn frm tha best lah...not screebox peepz. ceh
ohya, so lata gonna mit thm up at tamp. ada prac lah. lagikpun sehari tk jumpa dh windu. hehe. so gotta go now. nk siap2.
toodles
mizbithaqueen
p.s: afta reading ur blog, i hope ur ok. wateva i told ya plz kip it to urself. remember im there for u whn u nid it.
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Wednesday, December 27, 2006
went out yest wif d'phat. start out quiet n slow. for tha 1st tym, ive arrived 1st. but got a shock frm fyk. kiwak naik sama bus tapi tk tau lah. kan. till he nudge me. mak dia punye nudge mintak kene jotos sak. sumpahnya. i was lyk whus this shorty main langgar2. macam nak debuk jek. skali si elmo lah kan. ceh~
so we walk together to intrchnge. namaje si fyk pendek tapi jln maha lajukn. tk tau ar apa dia kejar. so we settle dwn at small mac,wif fyk buyin milkshake. cn u imagine...sejuk mamposnya si suar ni boleh minum air sejuk. cek ni dah lah menggigil. serrrrr~
thn came amir. mcm biasa muka ada hitam jugak. cakap tkda. banyak senyap lah dey~cek rasa gelisah nya bile elmo g bli ongkee tinggalkn cek ngan amir...mcm tunggul...nasib baik fadz n anto skejap sampai...tu pun tk banyak bebual lah. yelah anto baru hilang wallet dia, fadz ntah eh naturally diam gaknya...so evrythng bcame talkative whn the sluts arrive...ayun zirah n sumin...thn ifa...start lah kecohrism...heh
thn kita buzz off to take no 10. dalam bus ingat bleh buat musik video...self entertainment katakan. but half of thm r dwn the otha half motek. boring aje~ thn i whip out my speaker, dah tkleh tahan jah oi~, play music frm ayun's ipod lah..startlah mepek ku sorang2...joined by ayun...pas tu si elmo n fadz camera whore for tha day star snappin...apa lagi join ar sampai bus mcm nk tebalik tau kiah...ish2
but thn i wasnt in tht high mood lah...yelah ifa is feelin dwn, shes kinda lost, thn my bitch not ard, org ku suka dgn hal masing2...haiz. apa lah nasib...
btw, sum1 told said tht he felt leftout. well all i cn say is its both party faults. u bein unapproachable n we bein heck care. i dnt knw abt tha rest but how do i realli reach to you. u seem so fragile n naive. im afraid tht i might scare u away. i knw u gg thru all tha shits ryt now but lyk i said to u...talk to sumbody..it might not help tht much but at least it will relieve ur mind body n soul. i dnt knw hw many tyms ive been tellin maself to reach to u. ugh~ if u only knw.
toodles
mizbithaqueen
p.s: the bad aura of me n fad is bein shared wif anotha soul. dnt wori darlin its not the end...aniway shes no threat.
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Tuesday, December 26, 2006
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ok. a few updates.
firstly, i got suspended frm wrk coz my blardy AM accused me of stealin the store money. wifout any proof n evidence. she rather believe tha stupid filipino whus the one tht has been creating trouble. gosh! eva since she join tha store, theres always a shortage n now i get all tha blame. aniwaes, if it gets worst, im gona report to MOM n tha police for accusing me wif no evidence.
secondly, my deep secret for tha mo tht was juz btwn me n fad is now knwn to three otha people. frazze ayun n zirah. but hey, i trust them in this issue. i knw they wont tell. i will tell him myself whn tha tym is ryt. heh. i dnt knw whn coz im scared if the truth is out, he will avoid me, worst still he will leave the group. cmon hes lyk mr r.a.c.e. reserved arrogant conceited n ego. ceh. but lately hes lyk so having cramps, ahaha cn c it on his face seh.
thirdly, im so jeloz of fad ryt now. hehe. hes lyk getting all tha guys attention seh. knw wat, he get to kiss anto n fiq on tha lips. no forced attached. hehehe. besh kan. better yet, they dont mind it at all. sampai amik gambar smua. i gues its kinda retribution for me you knw. yelah g mos ngan fad on his berfdae but i got all tha attention, now its his turn, good for u darl tht u havin all e fun in tha world now. anto n fiq is lyk so cute lah. tkleh angz....
fourthly, im beginning to feel tht dance prac is gettin redundant if we dnt do sumthng abt it. i mean we had fun but the steps we dance to its always tha same. me ifa n ayun r gettin tired. dunno abt tha rest lah. eventho i came up wif a proposal, nobody like care. mak~ kene kejar dorang lah kan. penat jah oi. but i guess its gona b betta since me n ayun came up steps for tell me wait a minute n temperature. i told frazze amir n kidd to cum up wif sumthng too lar. ntah dorang dgr ke tak.
finally, i feel tht im kinda lost. i dnt knw if i really liked him or not.isit juz infatuation for sum1 like me whus craving for love. isit juz a physical attraction tht lead to a simple crush? or isit juz himwhu hav tht effect on ppl lyk me....haiz.
so near yet so far. how do i reach u eh? i wana tell u bt im scared. i dnt wana lose u lah. too early. wait till i get enuff. hah
klah. so gtg
toodles
mizbithaqueen
p.s: i thnk u knw but ur juz playin dumb. n even if u dnt, wil only tel u whn tha group split.
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Saturday, December 23, 2006
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so i didnt post for a few days. well i was feelin kinda missin u knw. tht certain sum1 wasnt ard. so i wz feelin down. told fad wat happen. i knw i cn trust him in this issue. he shared wif me his. hehe. so kiter ada secret anak dara btwn us. shhhh~
but thn nw im hating the feelin im facing. ceh! ok, im seeing sum1 but tht certain sum1 dnt knw tht im seeing. its more of a closet case. crush? mayb. love? i dnt knw. haix.
ok what do u feel whn tha certain sum1 u lyk, is liking sumbody else but tht sumbody else not really into the certain sum1? bingit kan. nk kata jeloz...ntah eh? marah? most definitely. but hey if i wana keep this closet love gg on, i cn die. but if i wana forget it n move on, susah giler. mcm mana nak elak pun mesti bersemuka dgn org tu. confirm boleh jadi gilernya. apalah nasib. always fall for the wrong person. wat hav i done to desrve this? i think i dserve betta but sum how i always fall into this hellhole. gawd, sumbody gotta help me. but who?
btw, darling babe is back frm kl. yg mepeknya, she cn spend lyk fire shoppin at kl, she didnt get anything for me. rabakkn! furthermore she stil hav the nerve to tell me tht. mak~ sundalanz. ouhya, frendy baby n amir sayang back frm wher thy left home. indo n malaysia respectively. as usual, frendy jadik makin kecoh. haha. katanya windu kat kitorang. aww~ but wth, we hav tht effect on people. amir team won at tha soccer match. 5-4. he scored twice. u rawkz.
so yest was more lyk a slackin day. heh. evry1 was tired. sum didnt make it. eg.
- ifa apparently wana stay home, coz mummy wana go for haji. she wana b an angel for tha day.
- frazze fell sick so stay at home. tc aaite darl.
- fadz gotta work. imagine frm 8am-11pm. boleh patah kaki.
- fad got guard duty. it happens once a week.
- kidd ntah kemana. keje gaknya.
- shida gotta wrk. n guess wat, she cnt make it on the 15th jan.
- nurul as usual mcm biskut. skejap ada skejap tkde.
so its left with tha rest of us. but stil kecoh mautz. ketawa tk ingat dunia jugak. but im getting bored wif tha same routine. i proposed tht whueva cn choreograph, get a piece thy lyk n cum up wif steps, thn we combined. but mcm bebual sorang jek. only me n ayun jek up for it. ceh kene reject lah kn. tk guna.
aniwaes, meeting thm up tmr coz got xmas dance party at pasir ris. hope evry1 cn turn up. but i dnt knw abt maself. since m feelin down, mayb i wnt turn up. but to think tht fad ayun ifa n BFF gonna b there, i'll drag myself. klah, wana go freshen up.
toodles
mizbithaqueen
p.s: tht certain sum1 proudly says its U(somebody else) n ME. n im feelin tha ache. y? cn i get over it? but if tht sum1 is happy so be it. i'll just lay low n biarkan aku mencintaimu, izinkan aku menciantaimu walaupun engkau akan dimiliki.
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Wednesday, December 20, 2006
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i so wanted to blog yest but too tired lah. heh. so doin it now.
so yest we mit up for prac..to discuss abt the positions coz theres lyk 15 of us so we need to giv othas a fair chance to b upfront n middle. furthermore its a 6min item we cnt b stagnant or it will be a bore. tru?
yest was frazze n shaz 1yr 1month anniversary. sweet nah. hehe. jeloz looking at couples tau. bsides discussin abt position, we did some recalls of our old steps n share. cutekan. its lyk blast frm the past. hee~
dah boring nya pasal, smua start dgn giler2 masing. best part, smua dh addicted dgn me ayun n ifah nya style. makin a music video. wif loud music, feelin2 to b the artist, lipsync to tha lyrics, n sing infront of an imaginary camera tht at times cn be a switch. hehe. cutekn. startlah mepek kita dgn lagu2 ranges frm jiwang to hiphop. frm im sick of love song to lady marmalade. yg best nya, lagu pudar lah. smua tau the dance steps frm the music vid. ha! siap lah joget sama2.
pas tu tk tau hamlau mana nya idea, disuruhnya joget to lagu pudar wif different expression. dari sedih, marah, kerek, bimbotic dan slenge. hehe kecoh2. pas tu sapa tk boleh impress e judge(zirah n anto) out. left me n ayun. maklumlah multi-talented katakan. whahaha. but thn, ayun lost. ended up laughing lah him. mak penat jah oi nak jadik actor. skelip mata kene tukar expression n emotion. fuh~ tk leh angz.
thn its time to go home. dh penatlah, lagi pun dh lambat n hujan dh reda. so off we go. but b4 tht we decided to go to 7-11. haus pe'ah. otw there, sempat ifah n anto gaduh2 main hujan n lempar air smua. ish2 dh dua berok tu basah balik. haha. me n ayun nyanyi kuat sambil pegang payung. minah payung katakan. frazze feeling2 jiwang ngan mp3 dia. the lovebirds biasalah, berdua-duaan. nk step dlm crita hindi konon. plz~ hehe
ouh ouh...amir darlin will be flying off to shah alm tht morning. ada soccer match lah. good luck to u darl. klau bole, score one for d'phat. hehe. so i guess, tmr i dnt feel lyk dancin. jumpa e rest chillin aje. yelah inspirasi tkde. hee~ my inspiration went off to malaysia. furthermore, if we prac almost evryday boring jugakkn. so we still mit up tapi talk cock sing song lor.
btw, i wana propose to thm tmr lah. since its gona be a bore if we do e same routine, y not we assign some ppl do choreograph to a song of their choice thn we combine. lagi senang for future use.
oklah gtg.
toodles
mizbithaqueen
p.s: i hope amir darl will cum back wif a smile. n new found happiness.
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Tuesday, December 19, 2006
wow!!!! juz nw ws a blast! had so much fun at sentosa. gawd it was so tiring yet so fun. loads of energie used. heh. met up the boyz at harbourfrnt, as usual we, fad ayun ifa n me, were late. janji kul 11 sampai kul 1230 gytu. ahahaha. so divalicious of us. thn head to sentosa by bus. damn waz it raining. sheesh.
reached there, received a call frm shaz. told us to mit at e tower of palawan beach. to surprise sumin lah. yg teroknya, kitorang tunggu smpai mkn masa nk masuk 1 jam.berfdae grrl n shaz blum sampai. ceh. mendak siol~
finally thy came. ahmin wz so surprised, she cried.awwww~ sweet nah. hehe. thn off we go to find a spot to put our barangz2 b4 we head to tha sea. hehe.
we start of wif a war like game. cn u imagine e boyz (fiq anto zal nor frazze akid amir) against us, ayun fad me n ifa. mak rabak sak kene. but hey kita 4 pun bukan calang2. thy got a taste of their medicine too. hehe. perang pasir katakan. damn tht was tiring. afta tht, sum1 suggested to play ice n water. cibai game tu lagi penat. sampai semput sak. boleh mampos agaknye. haha. imagine ar game catching main kt laut. kiwek!!
bila dh sempot, kiter g lah rest. but thn time is too short for a long rest, we decided to proceed to the aqua park. ifa's idea. thx babe tht was fun. tapi tk smua main ar. cume amir ayun ifa frazze anto n me. kecohrism mautnya. tk leh angz...we trid the trampoline, the rockclimbing, the saturn buoy n tha so called banana boat. punya lah susah nk naik bende hala tu. imagine all 6 trying to get on top of it. wats worst, frazze the heavyweight champ slalu kasik kita jatuh. afta lyk 5 tries, we managed. ahahaha. rabakkan. hee.
thn we proceed to tha pondok back coz apparently, it started to drizzle. n theres a lightning check gg on. bt b4 tht we manage to catch nor gettin buried. supa kecoh n all tht jazz. thn it gets heavier thts whn we chill under pondok wif techno n metal music playin. kimak ribut dok. but soon afta we gotta change cz tha thot of tourin came to mind. but wth, it ws raining cats n dogs afta all of us got changed. hmmmm~
so we decided to go vivo to eat. thts whn we met up wif zirah. twinnie darl passed so she get to hang ard wif us. congrats darl!!! i knw u cn make it!! she got 9 points tau. so proud of ya.
ouh. ya knw wat, i got maself a new 'bestie-boyfren' haha. anto! apparently me n ifa were smitten by his charms, we're hooked. imagine walking arm in arm together. so cute. but thn u knw wat struck me suddenly. my dear amir, suddenly bcame so quiet. katanya penat. mayb but sumthng else in mind too i guess. mana ada org trus senyap sgt muka terkencit cramp maut all of a sudden. pasal zirah kot? kot kapa, izhan? haha mcm mat malaysia sak.
i juz cant stand it to c sum1 bcame lyk dat u knw. it will juz concern me over. but hey lyk i said hes approachable, thts whn i ask zirah wats wrng but to no avail. haiz. thn we took bus 65 home thts whn i ask him thru sms lah kan. but he admit hes fine but juz tired, i agree coz amir darling got soccer match yest n according to zirah, he hurt his back n knee. but thn behind those pain lies a pain emotion tht juz flows thru the waves of tha soul. well, wont provoke him so i juz end the conversation wif a reminder sayinh tht if u hav anything to talk abt, im here to listen. hmmm~ i wonder whn will he b comfortable wif me? does it take too much to get his trust? only he knws. but i wnt giv up. heh. thts me. not kepo but concern.
so aniwaes, gotta catch wif ma sleep. bsok keje jah oi! abih pas tu jumpa d'phat. yeay! tk muak lah jumpa dorang. hehehe. nytez
toodles
mizbithaqueen
p/s: i would hold u in my arms, will try to take tha pain away~ trust me
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Sunday, December 17, 2006
ha. finally got my fingers running on ma keyboard. was too shagged. heh. so yest i went to mos wif fad frazze did mia n her 2 otha frens. it was a slow start for an anniversary. nothing special. juz tht e ppl wrking there dressed weirdly. ala2 english gytu. tk menjadi sak. kimak!!
the crowd basically sux. as usual. the music too. mos is gettin frm bad to worse whneva thy handovr e dj(ing) to otha dj. i still prefer dj rattle. so we r there frm 10 to 1230 n e music sux. dorang main lagu yg tk kenal. tambah lagik dgn clubbers yg tkleh joget. mepek sak. so we went out to catch some fresh air n bitch how teruk the nyte is. so we made a pact by the tym we re enter, make sure the music change. but by thn frazze gotta go. leaving wif the bad impression on mos. maklumlah 1st tym katakan. haha. he was totally bored.
teman frazze til the busstop thn we walk our way dwn to mos. upon enterin, we decided to make rounds. i find tht e retro crowds n music is betta but whu cn stay there for a long period of tym alone. i mean i like it but the rest dont. i dnt wana b left alone. sheesh. so we stroll back to smoove room. n ladyluck is smiling. there it is mr rattle. doin his thang. we r welcum by the song no scrub followed by come to me n so on.....it was a blast to the musical ears of ours. we dance. me n fad. thru out frm 130 to 430 flat. non stop. ahaha. poor frazze missed it.
actualli we club wif the hope tht our dear friend will get laid. for its his berfdae. well at least a no or a dance wif cute guys. but guess wat. it wasnt his nyte afta all. it ws so called mine. heh. frm mat reps to mat 7-11 thn to some abg2. overall theres lyk 7 guys tht hit on me. but none i ws intrestd in. not bein a snob but jz not in the mood. coz i was lookin for taufik. hes lyk there. but in the end i was left disappointed agn. haiz.
but at least i got somethng tht cn cheer me up. im lookin forward for tmr. yeayness. d'phat official outing togehter. we gg to sentosa. oso to celebrate sumin's b'day. happy berfdae grrl!!!! we gona relx n joy e sun sand n sea. according to ifa, we gona play some watersport. kewl huh.
oya not to forget, my dear twinnie, zirah, n level results wil b out tmr. i knw she cn make it. but she hav no confidence in her. wth? keep on tellin her she will make it. i know she will.
ouh ouh, guess wat, two love birds whu dnt confess their love, went out today. well apparently, the guy ask the girl out to watch his soccer match. saying tht she cn b his lucky charm. thn agn, the girl only say its juz a soccer match to me. i mean wud u actually go n watch ur fren soccer match held at braddell??? unles theres sumthng gg on ryt? so i teases her n she deny yet agn. til i receive n sms saying tht she spot sum1 whu look lyk her ex. so i was lyk tellin her tht her ex is watching over her to c if shes faithful. ahahahaha. she freaked out. lame ass. stil dnt wana admit aye. up to u. so long theres no fight.
oklah. i wana rest n catch on my beauty sleep. tmr e fun day. yeay.
toodles
mizbithaqueen
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Saturday, December 16, 2006
juz came back frm grannie's hse. ada doa slamat for mummy coz shes gg to haji soon. emil n fham gg to 2nd honeymoon to maldives...have fun ya. so jeloz. e food at grannie's was great. briani dam. very nice. thn the tidbits...n chocz...superb...i thnk i gain 5 kg juz by spending 3hrs at grannie's. heh
aniwaes, layta miting fad at tamp. ard 6. thn gona chill awhile b4 we crash at mos. gonna mit frazze n lan there. dnt knw whu else we gonna bump to. dh tanya ramai org...tkde yg reply..boringkan.
well we got a plan of gg to sentosa this mon n hav fun. hope evry1 cn make it. its gonna b a blast i hope.
ouh ouh...i gt the dream of amir agn. haiyo. gotta tell fad soon or its gona be playing in ma dreams....so deja vu so ironic
gtg. gonna rest thn change.
toodles
mizbithaqueen
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heh. so jst nw was e prac agn. start off slow n dull. was kinda nt in e groove yet. frazze n ifah were there 1st. thn came in me n zirah. thn amir. followed by ayun fadz anto thn e rest. fad came in last. got caught up in wrk.poor berfdae boy.
theres a lame tiff gg on btwn zirah n amir. ugh! how i wash my hands off them. dh suka sama suka tk nk ngaku tapi jeloz maut. ceh. pohdah! was realli not in the mood till frazze n ayun cheered me up. thx guys! i was kinda pissed off lah the way amir-zirah saga thingy. its gettin on ma nerves. when two egoistic suckers at loggerheads. sheesh. mcm nk hempas muka kt tembok pas 2 amik shotgun tembak smpai mampos! whahahaha~
aniwaes, thn we brush up abit n added sumnew steps tht m lovin it. hee. it worked well tapi tk tau lah kalau yg lain agree. coz basically, ayun ifa n fad agree to evrythng tht i came up eith so long nt too sexy. hehe. frm thn, i gt the hang of it. th out of tha blu, zirah was all quiet. opened up to me tht she was thinkin of wan(her late bf). consoled her n let her realised wateva she did was wrong. i mean ur not supp to mourn tht long coz it may turnout to be sinful. thn frazze consoled her too. i was kinda like waiting for amir to make e move. lambat sgt lah dey~ tk romanti langsung.
aniwaes, amir gt this thing tht really turn me off. its e way he communicate wif me. i mean lyk hello~ i dnt hav tht ugly face nor im n alien. wassup wif u talkin to me whn ur not lookin. rude~ ugh. at 1st i cn tolerate coz mayb hes shy but if it goes on for 2 weeks, there muz b a prob. gawd! cn u look at this face properly. sheesh.
ohya, shida came agn for prac, shes totally makin n effort. so touched. she deserves all the applause by me. i cn feel she realli wanna b part of this. well darl, no fret aye, we got lotsa tym to brush u up. no worries.
as usual kita lepak kt telepark. chill n acting all stupid, haha. thts us. n guess wat, ayun n zirah e big mouth, spill e beans to amir abt me complainin abt e way he talked to me. haha. finally its out. i was figurin out hw to tell him. lyk i said agn n agn, hes unapproachable. i think he got the msg so he kinda lyk hang ard closer abit. abih kau tau tk jah bila nk balik, ada hati dia nk cium tgn aku. mak~ tk leh angkat. katanya respek. helo~ mcm abg2 plak. rabak. but it was funny in a way tht got me smilin all my way home. hahaha.cute but too much drama. well lookin 4ward for mondae. cya beautiful ppl!
gonna catch ma sleep
toodles
mizbithaqueen
p/s: i got a nu name by sumin, its kat. haha
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Thursday, December 14, 2006
ugh. yest was such a boring day for me....whole day at home doin practically nuthin. jeez cn crack ma skull man. woke up read e papers shower breakfast watch dvd surf e net lunch surf e net clean the house watch dvd dinner sufr e net watch tv surf e net read magazine thn sleep. sheesh. i hate weds but its e onli day tht i cn rest...but wif this kinda rest i cn go crazy. shit.
it just struck ma mind tht i spent so many time at wrk n wif e d'phat, whn one day i dnt mit thm i go out missin. e dance crap work bitch gossip. hmmm~ hw i like it. aniwaes miting thm today (yeayness).
well this morn got a call frm my re askin wher am i? m like supp to wrk. sheesh. thx to zirah whus so blur-cockly happy tht she n amir reconciled tht she prac day dreamin. see she forgot tht i told her to remind syt iyee(re) tht m not working today. she said its done, but nt. haiz. thn found out durin handovr, theres a shortage of 49 bucks...n she had to pay half coz she left it to mariam whn she went to e loo. i mean cnt u do handovr 1st plc. dumb ryt. haha gd luck to you getting pokai..
n u knw wat, i had e same dream of amir agn. so gonna tell fad. actualli today m supp to mit iffa to go jln2 b4 prac. told her yest but she said c how coz shes stil sick. kecian. fad called this morn n say he cn book out early. superb meet ma bitch 1st. heh. thn got a msg frm iffa sayin shes ok to go. doubly superb. so gona mit thm lata at tamp n thn dcide wat we gonna do. heh. no plans yet.
so now m gonna take a shower n get ready or i'll b late. as usual. divaness.
toodles
mizbithaqueen
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Wednesday, December 13, 2006
met the peepz yest. tk ramai yg show up. n it wasnt reallly much of a prac. juz brushing up frazze, faz n amir nye drop it on me step n so excited. as usual strt out wif the normal chill session, thn go n dye ayun ifah n frazze hair. heh. came in zirah. bitch n joke alil bit thn came in amir. i saw e tension btwn zirah n amir. haiz. blum matayk dh tension. acted lyk nothing happen.
but i juz cnt take my eyes of amir. not tht m a psycho. its juz tht my intuition feels tht amir's tension nt onli abt zirah bt otha things too. i cn c e agony in his eyes. so much hatred so much pain. its so sad. cnt concerntrate. then we got shooed of by e wushu ppl coz thy wana use the floor for their training. damnz. we scooted of to sunplaza park. while walking, my mind is racing. thinking abt amir. but hes so unapproachable. sheesh. so i walked. ifah's condition worsen. sent her home. poor girl. hope ur getting better. no lame fun wif out u.
reach the park, no powerpoint. double damn. walk down to the nearest dome. still thinkin abt amir. but thn kept tellin maself tht i juz think too much. dragged maself wif zirah n thts whn she felt a presence n i saw one. haiyo manyak seram hor. memanggil jah oi.
settle dwn at e dome thn do some prac to the sngs played on ayun's fon. heh. thts our source for prac. kentalanz. i knw. thot zirah so excited steps. thot frazze faz n amir the proper steps for drop it on me. *thx ar ayun* thn start lah some foto takin, bitching,jokin,gossiping. wif dear mr amir left out. actualli more lyk him leaving himself out. ask zirah wat happen? she dnt knw n dnt care. but i do. due to my motherly instincts* haha* cnt bear to c ma dear ones all alone. susah senang biar sama2.
i ignore it with great ignorance. all done. we proceed to telepark. the usual spot for phat inc now its part of dphat too. left with me zirah amir antonio zal shaz faz frazze. chatted with zirah how nervous i am for my debut performance. showed her some steps n listen to some songs. i cn feel tht amir is watching, i cn feel tht hes still in such state. but how do i ask him? how do i reach?
its abt time to go home. zirah went off 1st with her scandal picking her up. then it was antonio amir n faz. while shakin his hand i saw it thru in his eyes. i juz hav to reach out to him. afta a few mins, e rest of us went home. thn sumthng struck me, y not i talk to him thru msn. took a shower n logged in to msn. lucky me hes in msn. read his headliner, i went gawd...he gave up?
do e usual break e ice thingy, thn slowly ask him a few qns. i was rite. totally. my first impression abt him was tru. hes in need of a listening ear. he need a shoulder to rely on. gave some advice n encouragement wic i think tht mayb useful. hey whu m i to give too much advise. m stil gg thru ups n dwns. slowly he opens up abit of himself. told me his nightmare, his confusion, his vulnerability, hes lost. but not too lost tht one cnt help. hes juz too ironic n cliche. kept blamin himself. thot tht evrythng was his fault. i cnt take it i cried. i wana help but he refused to open up. male ego? mayb. hes just a negative thinker whn it comes to him but he wants to be happy. pushing him to b positive. to b contented. but cyber talks cn only do so much. kept hinting him tht i'll b there if he need me. mayb he get it mayb he dont. too scared to experiment in life n making mistakes juz coz he lost hope. too much hope was said n given. gave up love. but whats life without any of these negative aura ryt. he mayb 18 but hes more like a kid. whu went straight down frustrated n sad whn their candy was snatched away. gosh. to him, tellin ppl his problems will add many more problems to them. he thinks too much of others. n went unhappy himself.
declaring tht hes happy if his loved ones r happy. but wats e use if ur not happy as u said u r. i dont pity or symphatise him. i pity myself. unable to help. but again too early to say. will try again. juz whn e communication was gg well, my comp snapped. triple damn. mothafucka. sent him n sms wif wisdom words of encouragemnt n sweet words of good night.
wiht the thot of him, i went to sleep. n had a dream of him. a dream i hope to come true. till thn.
nuff said
toodles
mizbithaqueen
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Monday, December 11, 2006
yaynesss! i wont e 2nd for e bellydance comp under the contemporary cat. kewl huh. it was so nerve wrecking to do it solo infront of e ppl especially ur the onlu guy among the finalist. sheesh. with a stand up challenge of dancing to the beat of wicked aura. wahlau....tk leh angz
wel i got e few titles under my belt...hee
1) best hip shake
2) best butt shake
3) best stand up dance
4) crowd favorite
hee...was so funni to b getting all these titles...stil havin butterfly in my stomach...aniwaes, zirah's bck frm kl. hope she got me e shoe...but nw the thng thts bothering her is amir...
hmm. she ask me wats wrng wif amir? how shud i knw. the only reason she ask is becoz amir didnt reply to her sms when she was about to leave for kl. haiz. isit such a big fuss to sum1 whu wont admit their feelings...*hint hint* y e concern kata org. aniwaes...dnt worri girl..hes orait juz need to catch up on his sleep i guess. heh.
speakin of amir, hes lyk my junior in secondary years. like way junior. i was in sec4 n he in sec1. heh. but how cum i didnt recognise him. not to flatter myself but m among the most popular guy back in secondary years. was well known for my arts n flamboyance. popular among the hot girls coz i cn b one of them. knw wat i mean. not in a girlish way fyi.
so back to e sub. for not knowing amir, i know a few guys frm his batch. ppl like kamaruzaman, ali, fazali, adi, syed daniel. hmm wat eva happen to them. so it was a shock lah to knw abt amir secondary background. or maybe, hes cursed has fade off? hmm.. u see we(siglapians) came up with this theory tht whueva frm siglap graduates, wil turn out to be a hottie..ehem ehem..haha. so mayb amir was such n ugly duckling back thn tht he turn out to be a stud now. check out those washboard abs n the pretty-baby boy face. ( e song baby boy playin in my mind)
well aniwaes...meeting up wif thm lata at tamp for prac n chill. so lovin thm instantly. heh.
gtg now
toodles
mizbithaqueen
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Sunday, December 10, 2006
so yesterday wasnt tht happening but it wasnt bad too. the first outing wif amir. well for a start, hes damn boring. he came wif no bag n flaunting his bod with body hugging grey shirt wif pair of jeans tht falls dwn well on him. but e turn off was e pair of crocs. ahakz. cnt stand it. its bulky ugly n plastic(k)y. ahaha. if ever there was such a word.
aniwaes, we met up at bugs coz apparently, pepek wana get all brown. i mean brown top, pants n belt. 1st we settled with a top. a long sleeved shirt thts so nice it cn pass off as levi's cowboy shirt. thn while waiting for amir to cum, we burn tym to go to icon. n lemme tell u it was sucky. all cramped up in a small space, 6 storeys high ard 7 shops evry lvl. thn dwn to lvl 3, we bumped to a shop tht sells retro undies. prints i mean. its so cute~. wanna get one soon.
thn we met up wif amir coz apparently his soccer prac got cancelled. we head str8 to dhoby ghaut. while walkin, we tend to do sum chat-up...n boy was it a bore. amir was all sleepy n dwn ending up me n pepek do all e talkin. as usual. e normal gossips bitchng n flirting. thts whn pepek popped e qn to amir. askin wats gg on btwn him n zirah. ahaha. n for a while he "wake up". hee. saying thy were juz frens. but hey we knw betta.
reached p.s. we settle dwn at mcdonald while waiting for ayun. bought some light refreshmnts thn pepek came up wif a story abt this rude grrl n a loser boy. very funny n entertaining. thn came ayun. god i tell u this guy cn b so slow whn comes to mit up its like as if keje dia tolak keranda. haha. we go on with our hunt for pepek accesories n clothes. walkin dwn to orchard. thts whn conversations get hyper. n we get naughtier. going all loud n giggly. imitates e passerby, re-enactmnt of how amir approach his frens, stalk a caucasian guy, sing along with the ppl to christmas songs. ahahaha we r wacky. afta all tht hustle, we went chilling at burgerking. taking things abit more serious, suggestin wat to do for e upcummng performance et al.
exchanging ringtones...took some pix thn its tyme to head home. taking the train but stil not done with e wackiness. dance a lil bit to our mp3, laugh n disturbing amir whu sat on the seats where we sat on the flooring. suggesting dance moves n remixes...n nt forgetting the bitching we did while watchng the commuters. ahaha. thn amir alighted at simei. we alighted at tamp. catch up some smoke while converse, thn pepek accompany me to my busstop.
agreeing to each otha how happy we felt with the new team members. how fun thy r n how old we felt. lyk pleese thy r btwn 14-18. we r btwn 16-23. ahaha. but aniwaes...we still clicked. ha~ cnt wait to meet these peepz tmr on monday. got sum brushing up to do. n oso cnt wait for zirah to return. i hope she got me tha shoe. haiz. how i look forward for tmr n so on. juz love the thot of bein in a big group of ppl. sheesh cnt wait.
aniwaes...gotta get ready now for my solo bellydance competition. m in tha finals. its a very low profile competiton so theres no huhah abt it but still nerve wrecking. heh. gotta go nw.
toodles
mizbithaqueen
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Saturday, December 09, 2006
so yest was e prac agn. n this tym we completed routines for e song so excited. amir let me listen to his mix wic he had done @ 4am. hours b4 our mit ups. gotta tell ya its kinda impressive but i knw he cn do better coz ive heard his few last remixes. abt me im still trying to get the hang of mixing but i got rave reviews tht im improving.
well today gonna mit ma bitch n we gona go shopping. well for him at least. yelah org tu dh dpt gaji pe. heh. i wnt milkshakes hunny! nk ajak ramai2 g jln. tapi e response was lukewarm aje. me fad ifa. duno bout e rest of tha crew. but aniwaes we promise each other tht we stil gona hav fun. hee. as always.
now basically im waiting for my dumb-evil twin to cum bck frm kl n hopefully she got me the pair of shoe i wanted. shhesh. dhlah pompan tu bengap banyak. n oso im waiting for 22nd dec cos ma werkplc gonna celebrate early xmas. n e pressie i ask frm ma manager is a dazzling bling2 watch frm guess. haha. duno if she gona get me the watch or not. dia tu sengket orgnya.
eventho ive mention it, i will say it agn. phat inc has evolved. not only we got great dancers joinin, they r breakers poppers n graff artist too. its lyk a deja vu ya knw. during the early days of phat inc, we hav tht but it went kaboom even b4 u can say pretty hjot and tempting. wtf ryte? i know. but this new babies...they r sumthng. too early to say but i cn c our future with them for a long tym. heh. slammin aint it.
aniwaes...i gtg. wana download agn my flashplayer coz apparently i switched off my javascript or sumthng. wat rubbish. i dnt evn knw it exists. so....
toodles
mizbithaqueen
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Friday, December 08, 2006
ouh gosh. im stil feelin so kekok to talk to him. sheesh. it was supp to b a secret btwn me fad n zirah n tht dumb minah go n tell him thnking tht its funny. n now hes officially in the group i hav to try n overcome e embarassmnt.
helo helo helo ppl. with the new collaboration, p.h.a.t. inc is nw DePHAT. cool or wat. we hav breakers now. haha. n im loving it. thy r so creative n active. we nw consists of 10 dancers i guess. gosh so much keeping up to do. n i cn partially forget abt bringin up a sexylicious group coz the guyz will neva get it xcept for us original phat inc. n nw wif this new collab, we gona giv a tight comp to some dnce groups outhtere. insya'allah.
aniwaes. gotta catch ma beauty sleep.
toodles
izhan
p.s: thks ar pinkizie for e embarassmnt. n no im not overeacting.
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Wednesday, December 06, 2006
ok so nw he knws it. all thnks to zirah. suar lah kau g bilang dia...i mean i dnt mind if u tell our members...we practically share everythng. bt y do u hav to tell e person. mak bingit seh. nw i dnt knw hw to face tht prsn. kekok giler. tk bole tgk muka smua. sheesh.
to thnk tht u do it on purpose was the 1st mindset i had. apa tkut aku rampas. plz lah. its juz a crush. not like i faint evrytym we touch. but to thnk bck if i knw zirah...she does hav a big mouth. bloody big. if u dnt tel hr it was supposed to b a secret, she will spill the beans.
aniwaes, kudos to shida for bein such a sport durin our photo shoot. thnks for e support gerl. appreciated. lama giler tk jmpa kau. ahakz. windu gilernya.
looks like for now, i hav to bear e embarassmnt. till 15 january. for we r collaborating. haiya. pain2. confirm i cnt really b meself. boring.
thnks ar girl.
toodles
mizbithaqueen
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