finally get to update. so these few days have been a little bit tight for me. from working, to cleansing my inner self to be a better person, to outdoor shoots and to self relaxation. get time for myself and what i do? slugged myself in bed with hot cocoa, ciggs and a good book to read. what bliss...i owe it to myself.

so now onwards, i got more time for myself. because its a new month and since i won't be anywhere near the confirmation of a full-time staff, i pick and choose my days. yes! i'm officially a temp. but on the lookout for a new job where retail won't be needed. 7years in retail line is stressful. and i'm worn out. i realize i'm more of a service-oriented than sales-oriented. heck, i said that before.

so halloween celebration to me this year was chilling at bukit timah firestation with the artists and gulping down cocktails and mocktails. not my idea of a celebration but it sure does help me laid back alot from all that emotional-possessed mindset of thinking am-i-not-part-of-their-life-anymore-neither-am-i-considered-one-of-their-bitches mode. to each his own. can't force.

ouh ya. talking about halloween, there is one thing a wee bit scary but im-glad-you-r-not-killing-me fact that got choked down on me. you see, fad was closing down his friendster account and he decided to edit-copy the gorgeous pics of the fantabulous times on facebook. you know the glamourous periods of us. so he tagged one of the pics to my sis, where she can look through the albums. apparently, not knowing the fact(or maybe he do) that my mum has a facebbok account too(yes! she does) she has the priviledge to view the pics. not that the pics are anything abusive or vulgar, it has some of the "unwanted" pics that i don't wish my mum to see. e.g me in glam make-up...looking all smoking hot! lol

so she just sat me down and tell me that she saw the pics and she was wondering who that pretty girl was(ehem!) and how come she never see her(ehem!) around before. when the facts is out, i really thought i'm gonna get one helluva lecture but instead she was like and i quote "astaghfirullah! lawa nya kau. macam some latin girl. can pass off as a model. muka terletak. make-up confirm copy tyra banks kan!" LOL! and then she compliment me that i look good as both guy and girl but should try my very best to put a stop to it. advice taken. looking presentable is good enough. and then we go on chatting about beauty. from make-up, to antm to drag queens to looking and finally hukum Islam. isn't it scary? well i had goosebumps thinking about it.

ouh, a shoutout to you bitches who now proclaimed as dolls: i know some of you may not want this but can somebody please be kind enough to make a date, where everyone is avail and we go out. we. yes we. as in im included. just you dolls. no one else. which means fad, q, ayun, affyq, netty, aziera, syima, aliff, azman. did i miss anyone out? make it happen, can?

toodles

izhan shah

p.s: seriously an outing will do....