[currently listening to proud mary - tina turner]
hmm. to think tht relationship is nice but currently ppl ard me r gg thru breakup. wat a cliche. this is freaking me out. one mi they r in love the next they r off. so lost ryte now. so wat is actually happening? shud one go for a relationship or not? n to knw wats worse...they r sharing ex-es...meremang bulu ketiak mendengarnya. heh.
so sumtyms im kinda blessed tht im single for seeing ur closed fren gg thru heart wrenching moments is heart breaking ok. coz in a way u knw wat they r going thru n in a way u do not want to go thru it also. sheesh. but who says love is perfect? love can neva b perfect. coz love is juz love. trust n patience is wat makes it go. desire lust n rage is juz part of it. so one hav to go thru tht hurdles in love to make it happen. hmmm~ but sum ppl r not tht brave to go thru it.
so who r we kidding these days? ourself or the ppl tht we wana b in love wif or the ppl tht love us? coz in anyway, its hard to b in a win-win situation. it has to b a win-lose situation. u hav to give n take. relationship as been really cheap lately. no one taking it seriously, n to those who do, ur kinda possesive in a way ending up freaking the otha party. y cnt there b plain honesty in it? is tht charm a long gone practices? sumthng tht can neva happen coz evryone is down to nasty lusty desires juz to fill up ur day n ur sex book to c how many u sleep with in a lifetime?
cmon get real. for how long can tht happen? 5 yrs down the road, u end up with crabs. coz in such position ur like a courtesan doncha tink so. where ones body r so worthless, it can belong to anyone juz wif a swiff of the stash. haiz~
im not saying tht im in the right path or im a preacher whos in the light n there for u to guide ur way. im juz an ordinary boy in an ordinary world but the situation has become extraordinary. org pernah kata..."dunia in satu sandiwara..." but when a lovely love story has become a soft-porn documentary...u wish life is like the movie. fantabulous picturesque.
so if sumone can picture a beautiful life n make it into a movie y cnt it happen in real life? isit becoz u've been taught tht life is not a movie, tht reality bites, tht fantasy is unreal, tht dreams n fairytales r for kids n only happen when u r asleep? but isnt it a pun when life is supposedly urs n its only u who can run ur life. so y not make it a dream cum true? wat? juz becoz theres responsibilities, needs, laws n governmentaries doesnt mean it cant happen. needs sheer hardwork. if not how sum ppl have a fairytale life? those over-achiever bitches n bastards...apalah nasib. sum r plain lucky, sum hav to work their asses off while sum r juz plain cursed. hahahaha.
words of wisdom from me ur sexy queenbee:
Don't let the past dictates who you are but let it be part of who you become because making a fool out of yourself is better than feeling worhtless.
toodles
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