[currently listening to love story - secret garden]
hmm. wats happening lately? nothing much. juz gotta giv full concerntration on my up n coming sis wedding tht will commence on 21st july. but while waiting for tht to happen, i gotta get sum of my focus ryte. wic the problem is i dnt knw wat. haiz.
well, 1stly i knw is tht im fat. ahakz. n the reason i say tht is bcoz, ayang called me fat! cibai! ada ke patut dia ckp kalau dia pakai baju cek, boleh buat selimut?! tk musibat namanya tu. cis~ yng dia tu g kudutkn badan buat apa? wana b fad body double izit? but anw, in the fashion world, being curvy is so in. so i dnt mind. look at beyonce, jlo n tyra. curvilicious babes. so blueks to you kuduts-kuduts ppl.
so~ fad cnt get ova the fact tht he is having this supa huge crush on ayan. ahahaha. n mind u ifa, not ur ayan ar. well bitch, he may hav all the qualities u look for in a guy but do u think a str8 guy wil b bi or gay juz for ur love? not tryna burst ur bubble but hey! reality bites u knw. juz drool jelah. like wat i am doin now. ahahaha. n dnt u dare cum to me n say: think positive bitch! work with me. ahahaha. its so wrong. kau cacat ke buta? ahakz.
to ifa darl. juz open ur heart to sumthng tht u need. not tht u want. coz its easier to handle ur needs thn to handle ur crave. b honest to urself. single life mayb hard but y compromise juz for the sake of to b love. the time will come, mayb not now but tmr. u neva knw wat is in store for u. life is a mystery itself, its up to u to discover. have fun with the adventure k.
so i wil b outta job for the month of july. afta wic i wil go for another job hunt. stupid company who change the stupid management n now its gona b strictly female working environment. damn u assholes. i love tht job ok for ur FYI. bloody loser. n now im gona miss my collegues. n the priviledge. n the training. n the freebies. n the gossips. n the competition. aaaarrrgggghhh!!!!
damn. now i hav to b thrifty til end of month. or mayb more. tht if i found a job lah. haiz. any1 wana hire me? loads of experience in the retail line. yooohooo~ im up for hiring. sheesh. this is so lame. to go for anotha job hunt. hmmm. tkpalah rezeki tu dimana2 kata org. kene pandai carik.
urgh~ i so need a partner. i mean single lyf is fun but sumtyms u need tht sum1 to turn to. i dnt knw how many tyms im repeating myself but ya~ this sux. to think tht i cn go thru this but imagine ur stuck wif a bitch whos so desperate for sex n love, a gajah whos so turning like his cuzzin, a blur berok whos so into two guys at the same tym, a grillz sucka whos torn into two n all tht jazz. n all u cn do is tryna think positive. ahahaha. work with me bitch.ahahaha. jgn kata cacat ke buta, bodoh ngan gila jadinya jah oi~
toodles
mizbithaqueen
p.s:
adores u. n love u so. i cnt giv u anythng but cn tell u one thing for sure, i love u.
