you knw wats the ferst thing on my mind when i woke up? WORK! kiwak, so lazeelah. aiyah. wats happening? wat to do? when ur workplace is more of a slavedriving than a bubbly environment. i mean the ppl r nice but not the management. its sucky. now i have two options. to either leave the place or bluff them tht im starting class very soon so i cn only work in the morn. coz u knw why? morning shft flies faster. aftann is so draggy. imagine reporting to wrk ard 2 n the next thing you kne ur lunch is at 3pm. waddehell. pas tu keje mcm filipino maid sampai 1030. mcm sial kan. the only thing i put up with is my collegues, the clothes and the cute guys working in otha stores. ahahahaha. otha thn tht, eeew~ none, zipped, zero, finito, finished, kebaboom!!!
ouhya damn i hav this dream. or isit a nitemare? i dnt knw. u dcide. its sumthng abt trying to b with sum1 u love but tht sum1 changed n its for the worst coz tht sum1 turn out to b some sort of a hypocritical character. will do basically anything to bring u down n give u bad name. only then u realise the true colors, u tend to b a fighter back. but afta it went sour, like real bitter, its when tht sum1 realise tht they r in the wrong and wanted evrythng to b like the old days. but by thn ur oredy hurt so much, u dnt knw where to begin? whether u cn accept back the relationship. n by the time tht person really repent for their deeds, ur oredy on ur ends. i mean ur living ur few days. and when ur on ur death bed, saying ur last prayers, its when tht sum1 declare their true love for u all this while. only afraid to show or say coz afraid tht ppl mite think otherwise. but upon hearing, ur gone. leaving the world n love ones to b on God side.
i woke up with cold sweat and tears. its sorta disturbing in a way. coz i can really feel evry touch, evry word, evry presence. if dream is juz a minds game at sleep, then its ok. but dreams do come true. now thts nasty. coz seriously do i have to go thru heartaches upon heartaches juz to get the love ive been wanting for only to receive it at my last moments? i wish i cn juz lay on evryones arms tht i love n say sweet little things n share the magical warmth of true hearts hug.
told my mum abt my dream. all my mum can say is, "never hate the heart tht hurts you and never hurt the heart tht loves you...juz keep on doin wat i do best n tht is love care n respect"...thts when i perform my prayers n went back to sleep. upon sleeping, i have images of ppl tht i love running rite infront of my eyes n then i went back to sleep. n now when i woke up typing all these, i realize how time flies, how lazee i am n how small this world is. when life's simple pleasure cnt b enjoyed wholefully, how can u even afford to hate sum1? life's too short to have enemies.
toodles
mizbithaqueen
p.s:
Asal kapas jadi benang
Dari benang dibuat baju
Barang lepas jangan kenang
Sudah jadi orang baru
Mengapa dirindu
Don't let regret become a shadow that follows you around..
