wat a cold morning it is. reminds me of the cold november rain tht juz passed us by. n now its flipping to march n its the rainy season again? i thot the monsoon weather suddnt b here til late april? well this is fast n the thot of climax and global warming is on the threadmill, pacing speedily as the world is shrinking by the moment.

so we didnt get the slot for this weekend. its ok. i dont mind. its not some huhah thingy to b sulky abt. so what if its at marina sq? we've had our taste of presenting ourselves ther b4(phat inc that is). n erm according to the majority, they wana take the moments off any performances or competitions thts coming our way. so ya, ur wish is granted.

ok so the audition thingy yest didnt go so well. wasted ur time, ur energy and ur joy. but let bygones be bygones. so now u knw who u can deal with and who u cant. start playing safe and roll with the homies.

damn worklife is starting soon. hehekx. not complaining or anythng juz nervous abt bein in a new environment, meeting new people, hav new goals and priorities, new responsibilities and new tranquility. since i am an adaptable person (saying.."im an attractive, intelligent and confident representative"..ugly betty style) im sure i can blend with the sluts n bithces there. hehe.

one thing for sure. i'll b seeing less of the d'phat family. less of ma bootyshakes, bellywaves and suggestive dance moves. to the liking of some people. but to think of it, fad ma bitch wants to enter the comp thts coming up on 25th march. and erm, according to him, if im not in, he wont b in too. well, starting to feel guilty if he already states it tht way. dnt wana b a barrier to his passion but thts wat he said. period. guess i hav to make some time for him tho. we sorta cling to each otha. hes the reason im stil dancing n im his reason tht hes stil dancing. hehehe. cute ryte. well apa nak kata jah oi~ kalau dh mcm suria towers KLCC. sama2 jambu, tinggi lampai, sexy, memikat hati, bitchy, slutty, whorish, skanky, pelacur and evrythng in between we blend well.

the thot of us getting an apartment togeda oredy send chills down my spine. so looking forward. n ehem ehem, got the green light from my parents lah kan. so hav to start saving oredy. so tht means hav to star workin redy. get down serious. coz wat if i didnt save enuff and when the time comes i hav to serve ns but by thn i got an apartment, who gona pay the rents? kecian fad if he hav to pay evrythng(but to thnk of it...ok jugak perr)..mana dia nak c'tinue studies, nak support diri dia...haiz. at times like these, sumtyms u sit down n pray, its time for a miracle. hehe.

but miracles dont juz happen. if u want it, u gotta earn it. evrythng happen for a reason thts y nothing appear juz like tht u knw. even when sum qns asked, theres no answer to it, it still happen for a reason. plz~ god dnt waste time creating sumthng w/o a purpose. coz why wud he create sumthng juz to fill up empty spaces and making this earth a crampy place? hell no.

so i dnt see the reason for sum ppl to get worked up ova somthing so teeny. i dnt see the reason for ppl to go overboard for sumthng so trivial. i dnt see the need to overrule. overshadow. overpaced. juz to show u knw how to handle evrythng. u knw evryone. u knw evry bits n pieces tht is to it. plz life is a learning cycle. dnt thnk u knw everythng coz life is an endless journey of knowledge. endless of experiences to experiment. its endless...always~

toodles

mizbithaqueen

p.s:

aint it crazy that all you can think of is him but all he can think of is her. and when all she could do is come to you and talk about him. the only thing you can do is listen to her talks with the pain in your heart, smile in ur face and tear in your eyes. and when you take a glimpse at him, expressionless. crazy.

U don't seem to noticeu don't seem to care, so why is it ur the one i want to be there.