finally i got some sleep. n ya i slept at 230am++ took some paracetamol flu pills n cough syrup.(neya love dnt get mad aite..at least i got some sleep). well got up kinda giddy n heavy headed lah but thts a norm ryte? i mean afta all the medicine u took to make u drowsy thts gona b the side effect ryte?
feeling all the thousands butterflies in my stomach juz the thot of tonight's event. so ready for the fun but not the competition. its nerve wrecking. its so making my hair stands. giving me goosebumps. not tht its my 1st comp but juz the thot of evry comp make me feel this way. urgh~
okok. i have to admit. im forcing myself to feel this way coz i wana forget the deep feeling inside. the hurtful feeling inside. the feeling of hurt love missed. its heart wrenching. n this is the best option out so far. i cnt let this feeling take over me.
eventho when my living nitemare/dream is dwn for the comp i cnt et it distract me. jeez. this is hard. but i guess neya n fad will b there to make it alright. n not to forget my groupies..ifa q nick n the twins. hehe. so ya i guess it will b ok(crossing fingers...)
but u knw whos this one person im begging to b down for. my hubby. i missed him like fuck seh. like fucking fuck fuck, u fucker. well at least i got to tell him tht yest. hehe. n if hes alryte, mayb hes coming down. HUBBY IF U READ THIS, DO COME DOWN YA MY LOVE. NEED U AS AN INSPIRATION FOR TONITE'S EVENT. coz my usual inspiration dnt inspire me no more. it wasnt like the last time how tht inspiration was like a drug for me. but now tht inspiration of mine is disappearing slowly swiftly goin goin....gone~
so ya ppl wish us good luck ya. pray tht we hav fun! n manage to bring the house down!!
wooooooooohooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~
toodles
mizbithaqueen
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