(taking a deep breath) heave ho~ in the still of the morn, cold as the january breeze flow thru my room, droplets of condense sweat n tears brimmed in my eyes as i woke up. bronchital stead breathe caught me up. all wrapped in my warm blanket in ouhm position juz to steady myself.
geez. wat kinda nightmare m i getting. its so surreal. ive lost haiqal. i cnt afford to lose anotha one. but in this case like most of them. ugh~ i knw mimipi tu permainan tido but sumtyms its a message to us. eva heard of deja vu. wishing n hoping n praying tht sucha thnk dnt happen. coz im not strong enuff neither m i ready for sucha thng to happen. ive had enuff...gimme tym to get ova wif tha thngs i went thru in tha past for me to b redy wif new boulders to come.
i got sumthng to type on. n if u hav the ans to my qns....do tell me.
Hujan di hujung hari
Larutkan kemarau hati
Aku simpulan diri
Harungi tabir berduri
Rintihan hati yang terluka
Membuai noda diantara kita
Ternyata hidupku hanya
Menuai duka yang tiada akhirnya
Oh pada siapa
Aku bertanya di mana aku
Cari cinta puas kutanya
Ke mana-mana tak ada jawabnya
Oh pada siapa
Mengadu lara membasuh luka
Menderita mungkin ku bisa
Menggenggam asa sebelum ajal tiba
so ya. i let my mum read that. she said love grows. but i hav to b strong. then she lemme hear a song tht encourages me. i cnt remmber by whu but i remmber tha lirik especially tha chorus. it goes sumthng like this:
katamu aku lelaki
ku harus tabah hati
gagah tempuhi
ranjau yang menanti
katamu aku harapan
akulah masa depan
menjadikan mimpi
suatu kenyataan....
thts abt it. i love it so much. thts like my motivator. the words is strong n direct. so simple yet so deep. so true.
btw, im happy for u to b in love with love again. eventho its for tha wrong persn. but hey thts juz a start...u cn start cooking n get the flow of it. heh. dnt fret too early. jz start adapting. jz like how u did wif us now. n we r loving it. evry mo of it. jz keep it coming. hee. but thn again cum real. dnt fake it. n if u hav anythng to talk abt b my guest. we r there for u. always.
ouhya...when the fires dead n theres dry ashes ard. dnt even try to add oil n start a spark again. coz this time the fire will get bigger n uncontrollable. to tink tht u cnt handle the situation by playin wolf in sheep skin. ur so wrong. b4 u mess wif it, try n learn sum knwledge on wat ur messing wif. coz in the end its u who gonna b burnt. juz study the situation b4 u wana start the fire.
klah wana go freshen up.
toodles
mizbithaqueen
p.s:
Why do birds suddenly appear,every time you are near?
Just like me,they long to beclose to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky,every time you walk by?
Just like me,they long to be close to you.
On the day that you were born, the angels got together and decided to
create a dream come true.So, they sprinkled moon dust in your hair, with gold and starlightin your eyes so true.
That is why all the girls in town follow you all around;
Just like me, they long to be close to you.
wishing upon a star, wishing on a dream, wish on all the rainbows that i'd see you smile evrytym. n i wish u see me as your true one......i wish.
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