shit man! i thnk i hav too much on my mind abt u tht u appear in my dreams agn. its a mixed emotion tht im feeling. coz its a mixed chapter tht im facing. n its splits of a personality tht ur playing. i dnt knw...juz dnt wana cry coz im tired of listening to tha sound of my tears...wana get thru wif it but eventho i tried i cnt let go...so im stuck now.
heres the truth y i tried to let go n i cant. ur a nasty split resemblance to my late ex. i havnt told anyone yet except for ayun n fad. the face the smile the body the jokes the personality the sickness...evrythng except for height n intelligence mayb. tht is y i cnt get ova u. i tried but evrytym i failed. to think tht ur a reincarnation on haiqal(thts his name) for me...i was wrong. ur juz anotha look alike...i guess. as hard as it is to get to u, thts tha same thng as it was to get to knw him. n now tha only way to getcha outta ma head is to help tha third party...as much as its gonna hurt...i hav to b strong..coz i cnt afford to hav hopes in you knwing tht i wnt get any in return...n do u even care?
so me n ayun sorta share tha same boat ryt now. n we r back to square one. but honestly, i dnt thnk its ova for ayun yet. i dnt knw jz got ths feeling its not ova yet. but hey wat bout me. mcm sama gytu. anw darl we got each othas back aite. lets pull this thru together...
so ya~ yesterday we had our prac...gotta brush ups on the steps to temperature mentirosa 12 o'clock n if i want to...n by tha love of god...we r like practically financially emotionally physically mentally spiritually broke(did i miss anythng out?)...so broke tht its like dphat driest pocket day eva. no cigarettes food n drinks...haiz n i guess we knw tha value of it yest. hee. confirm smua balik smalam makan mcm babi...cnfrm plahap...cnfrm terbegik..cnfrm tk baca bismillah..whahahah~ but ya it was funny ar smalam lepak kat telepark. ehehe...smua bli air vitasoy...thn ada yng bli doughnut...kiwak sampai jilat2 paper dia lah kan...n i guess if tha paper is edible...cnfrm dh ngap skali...ehehehe...mcm carnivore smua...scavanger on tha loose..
ouhya...i dnt knw apa stim amir ayang wana skip his solo thngy tht last for wat...8 sec?...i thot uve been wanting tht for so long? anw u gt ur own choice...nobody gona stop ya..but th again we got our back up plan oredi...tha steps for me n u are fused together for tha couple dance. we had ourt touch up n practice ova it yest...it went well n nice...slammin~
btw...aisha darling got her audition today at toa payoh...good luck girl! burn up tha dancefloor..ur style is dope. love tha way u dance...so steroidically energize...ehehe..i loike~ n sorry i cnt make it to support ya...coz my crew gona hav a performance soon n we got lotz to brush up...aniwaes..my babies cums 1st ya...u'll understand..but hey u got ma blessin girl...
so ya gonna hav prac layta...n now im gonna freshen up...cya ayangs!!!!
btw read fadlee blog....
toodles
mizbithaqueen
p.s:
Just cast aside
You don't even know
I'm alive
You just walk on by
Don't care to see me cry
And here I am
Still holding on
I can't accept
My world is gone
Do you even realize the sorrow
I have inside
Everyday of my life
Do you know the way it feels
When all you have just dies
I try and try to deny that I need you
But still you remain on my mind
No I just can't get you out of my mind
I never can say goodbye
'Cause every night I see you in my dreams
You're all I know I can't let you go
Even though I try I can't let go
Of something that I need so badly
You're all I know I can't let go
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