ok. something juz struck me yest night. its been like the longest time tht im single. n since then ive always been hurt, played n joked at. it may sound so funny n ridiculuous for sucha thing to happen to me...but ya. its true. n i guess it will always continue to happen.
my babygirl, zirah, told me tht mayb not today nether tmr...but happiness in love wil cum to me once again. coz sum1 lyk me deserves sumthng betta. its sweet nah. but for so long ive been patient abt it. how long more do i hav to go? till ive lost hope n faith in love? something so pure yet so trivial? so where do i stand? in tha dark..all alone...
wat wud u do whn sum1 u love is turning their back on you? i mean thy said u dnt understand them. thy treat u lyk a piece of shit. u seemed so unvaluable. bt whn u kept quiet n be ignorant..thy cum to u or whn thy need sum1 to talk to thy crawl back to u. thn whn thy r happy back...thy forgets u. is this how it shud b? the retribution for bein nice? the worst part is whn thy got their eye on sum1. its ok for me coz if i love tht person, i wnt tht person to b happy. but to sum ppl its too much for them.
i get comments tht i thnk for ppl rather thn myself whn cums to love. but thts me. i rather go thru the pain in silence than seeing the one i love n care get hurt. but fad teguh me tht its time i thnk abt myself. but how do i do it? ive been brought up with the philosophies of..."its better to b love than to love, love sum1 make them happy, cum wat may thy r urs to keep if its fate"...mayb i bliv in fate too much. i prefer to let nature takes its course whn it cums to this issue. haiz.
like wat neya said...to some ppl we r not special n to othas we r. n to those whu thnk we r special...thank u for the appreciation. n to those whu thnk we r not, juz b nice to us rather thn sarcastic or rude. it doesnt pay to b disrespectful of othas. coz it brings u to nowhere but hatred. dang~ tht girl sure knw her words...im lovin it
so 27th jan gonna b our perfomance day agn. but we still need to brush up certain steps. even for myself theres a few steps im unsure of. n if ifa realli not joining..we hav to come up wif steps during tha couple dance so it wont b redundant. so there u go anotha thing to learn. n ouhya i so wana teach neya n fadz asmaradana steps so thy wont hav to stand like statue...greek statue mind ya. so there u go...anotha steps to brush on...hehe
toodles
mizbithaqueen
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when u learn e truth that i loveu, will you love me back the way i love you? wil u juz take my love n no return? will u love me for e sake of loving? wil ur love b forced? or wil u b ignorant?
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