ok..theres a few things on my mind:
-first of all i wana apologise to tha crews for my sucky attitude durin the formation tryoutz. i thnik its just tha glimpse of worry is there. like dduh~ tha performance is lyk in 3 days tym n we stil havnt really brush up tha steps n formation. evry1 got tha steps but obviously not one person including me got the timing ryt...mesti ada yng cepat ada yang lmbat n worse...doin our own thing. haiz. im not trying to b tha bad guy here but ya we had our fun tym, i dnt mind i want more to come but whn it cumes to business, get down serious, coz at the end of tha day whn we screw up, its not tha crowd tht feels bad, its us. we gonna walk wif our head lay low blamin ourselves for not miting up to our own individual expectations. i jz dnt want tht to happen. i want ppl to hav fun. put up a good show n impress tha crowd. if not all, the least we can do is impress a few. mayb even one. wouldnt it b great if a person comes up to you n wowed u by how great tha performance is. juz imagine, one person saying tht out of the few hundreds. there will still b an impact for us. tru? so ya~ mayb to some thts too much to ask but im sorry if it hurts u at a certain level. we r amateurs but dnt act lyk one. coz if we do, we gona remain amateurs thruout.
-seriously to some ppl whu stil thnks tht we(dphat) r missing sumthng n we dnt knw wat, let it be. coz sooner or later, tha matter will arise. its not gonna b too little too late. its better to move on n get down rather thn tryin to step up to tha party investigating our minds up on such trivious issue. it wil bring u nowhere. tinggalkan saja dan lupakan semua yang terjadi, anggaplah angin lalu. lets juz stop the whining n start shining coz seriously, frm my point of view, we r one hell of a dazzling star waiting to b born. wuuuhoooo~(singing to 'a star is born')
-i think u knw tht i lyk u but ur playing dumb abt it. i dnt mind. but u dnt hav to b cold abt it. its not lyk i want it. happend whn one day i woke up thinkin of it. i tried to fight this feelin inside. i tried to hide. but evrytym i do tha heart cried. coz whn i look in ur eyes i hyped. i pull myself togetha. hoping for sumthng betta. coz trying to hav u is neva. but no matter what theres a special plc for u in my heart, foreva.
-im feeling tha guilt ryt now but seriously its best for evry1 at tha moment. dnt feel tht ur not missed n rejected. dnt eva feel alone. u can always pick up tha fon n cal me. better yet u cn mit me if u want to. u knw m there for u. we r there for u whn u nid us. but for now, open up ur pretty eyes n look. try to find urself. coz if u cnt figure out wht u wnt, nobody cn.
so there thts a few things in my mind. haiz.
ouhya, yest me n ifa had a talk abt dreams. n u knw wat, we had this same dream. abt one hot guy entering tha group. theres nothing special bout it lah coz this guy is like a typical malay but theres sumthng abt him tht drives us closer. ahakz. fnny aint it. two person dreaming of tha same guy. it was tha same description. n if its really gona happen, both of us(me n ifa) claimed tht it wil make amir a run for his money. whahaha~ coz lyk now, hes the mr hot of dphat. ehehe~
btw poor fad ma bitch. accordin to doc, the part of his eyes tht 1st caught tha infection, is healing but hes experiencing anotha infection on tha same eye. well i guess in a good way, he got his wish, for a longer mc but the bad ones, what if it gets serious. i guess u hav to take ur medicine frm now on darl. confirm muka tk jambu kalau dah jadik one eye jack nyah oi~
to frazze darlin, dnt thnk too much abt ur sickness aite. dnt get carried away wif it coz if u do it wil destroy u. evrytym whn u tremors, banyakkn kn selawat. n not gg ard showing ppl ur tremors, its unhealthy. ingat wateva it is, back to basics n tht is god. n ya, u cn listen to hurt anytym u want but not infront of us ok. coz it hurts each n evry1 of us seein u in such state. juz remember if it doesnt hurt u, what makes u think it doesnt hurt tha ppl ard u.
somethng i came across, its intelligently good words to ponder on, its motivating.:
CHILD HOOD LIVIN'
IS EASY TO DO
THE THINGS YOU WANTED
I BOUGHT THEM FOR YOU
GRACELESS LADY
YOU KNOW WHO I AM
YOU KNOW I CAN'T LET YOU
SLIDE THROUGH MY HANDS
WILD HORSES
COULDN'T DRAG ME AWAY
WILD WILD HORSES
COULDN'T DRAG ME AWAY
klah wana go freshen up n clean house.
toodles
mizbithaqueen
p.s: besar kesalahanku, besar lagi keegoanmu. berkali ku beri soalan berkali-kali kau menolaknya. kau inginku membiarkan, dirimu seorang diri. dan terbakar oleh perbuatanmu. kekasihku cukup engkau buat dirimu begini, luka itu usah engkau berdarahkan kembali. masih ada yang cinta padamu, masih ada yang setia padamu. didalam sendu terukir seruan hatiku, bukalah pintu untuk sekali ni.
I sing for you and only you
Wherever I go I find you
You’re in the sound of every hello
In everything I do
You’re the song I was destined to know
And I only sing for you
You went away. I should have known
You leave so many dreams behind you
Thought I’d be fine just being alone
I didn’t have a clue
But my heart had a mind of its own
And would only sing for you
You’re in the sound of the rain
Clouds in a winter sky
In a thousand unsaid words
In a thousand crazy reasons why
You were meant to fly
So fly for me and day by day
I’ll keep hoping your heart reminds you
Nothing but love can stand in our way
But love can see us through
Maybe that’s all I wanted to say
I will always sing for you
I will always sing for you
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