i wana update yest but blogger is on maintenance. jeez. its like getting on my nerves lah. sheesh~ bt here it goes....
yest was dphat debut performance at ite simei. no doubt there was some screw ups ar but hell we had fun. bt the worst thng is, tha crowd. like dduh was it dead. dorang sumer mcm budak2 terencat otak kene paksa tgk show gytu. so dumb n dead. no cheers no clap. urgh so much for bein an audience. kalau bole mcm nk kluarkan machine gun, tembak satu2 smpai mampos. geram tau kiah oi. tk tahan mami ni ha.
thn afta tht, we all discussed n seek out our mistakes. well there wasnt much onli tht we hav to work on our synchronisation n energy consistency. ahakz. thts lyk the most required ones. but hey it was ok. we hav anotha performance cumming up so ya. we cn take tht as full dress rehearsal. hehehe.
went lepaking at cc. evry1 was dead tired n sleepy. so do i. but skip tha sleepy part. my mind was racing at two ppl here. im lyk confuse n jealous at tha same time. thn whn i wana talk abt it, my 3 bitches went away for clinic appt. not tht i cnt talk to tha rest, its juz tht its too long to repeat tha situation. n if i tell thm tha short of it, mite b under wrong perception.
so ya. i let it be. evry1 fell asleep except me anto n neya. thn we r entertained by abang's choices of songs. some r like crappy old techno, thn others wer like heart wrenching love songs tht bring me to tears on the brim of my eye. nasib baik tkde org prasan. heh.
i realise amir darl woke up. as usual org kalau baru bangun tido, terngiang2 skejap kn. thn termenong. tapi amir darl ni dia trus bangun duduk, jln2, naik turun. thn, whn he settled dwn thts whn i realise tha tears in his eyes. omg, so sad. fraze consoled him. thn tha scary part was whn he went weak n breathless. gawd was i panic. tried my best to calm him down. gave him his drops as requested. told him to lie down n relax. for a mo, it was a blast frm tha past for me. coz thts how i lost a dear partner. both him n fraze may not c it but i teared. im like so scared lah. neya calm me dwn. afta amir darl got control of hmself, i ask fraze wat happen. he did not go into details but he said tht amir's sickness is back. sumtyms whn hes lyk hyper. thn theres otha reasons tht i cnt type it dwn. kesian budak tu malu nnti...alalalala~
thn thngs settle dwn as per normal. start lah mepek2 kita ye. eventho rancangan 'controversi tersangt bingit dn tk habis2' tkda, ada kluar drama tk bersiri 'ghazal untuk rabiah: anak isetan sesat'. ahakz. mak satu step mana nya gangsta ah. kiwak tk dapat lah oi. ada polis tk bole harap, ada jugak org bercintan cintun. yelah gang tgh gaduh ada yg boleh motek ni. mepek sak. shud hav record it dwn ar. seriously funny giler.
pas tu plak biler feeling mat reps n minahs dh tkda, kita jadi jantan dn betina joget balik. hehehe~ amir n kidd came up wif cool steps for mentirosa n anotha item no i dnt knw tha title. tha couple dance was so cool lah. n neya n kidd looks so good togetha as couple...awww~...agree tk korang??? fraze came up wif steam. as for myself im trynna work wif fraze for thru wif love. so ya sumthng new to learn. woohoo~
so thts tht. im gona go freshen up now. clean tha house n go out.
advice for amir love:
dnt apologise whn u cry. dnt take it as u r spoiling our day by seeing u cry. its ok to cry n we still b there for u. yes u wana hav fun, but fun cums naturally. its a game u cnt force to happen. we r now lyk family rather thn dance crew. so we got each othas back u said it urself we cn rely to u as a shoulder to cry on, a listening ear n it kills u if we hide it. thn play it back to u darl. we cn be ur listening ear n shoulder to cry on. it kills us to c u so bottled up. so once again, in frenshp the word sori dnt exist. so is goodbye. so hush little baby dnt u cry things gonna b alrite.
toodles
mizbithaqueen
p.s:
I don't know why I miss you so much
I don't know why I still feel you touch,
You left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why?
Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection.
If you call me today
I'll say that I'm fine,
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie.
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless.
You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
Damn that's sad!
There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me.
My love for you is deep and meaningless.
just so u knw, theres a third person now. n im willing to step back n let u both bloom. with ache in my heart, tears in my eyes but joy in me. im thru wif it. slowly~
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