haix...i dnt knw y but lately seems tht i wasnt in tha mood. i thot it wasnt tht noticeable but was i wrng...neya love notices it. hehe. seriously i dnt knw y im so dwn lately...izit bcoz of money work frens n love? i dnt knw. its a mess...a whole weblike mess n i keep spinning on it. im so restless n tired.
tha thot of not meeting anyone ryte now keep crossing ma mind but everytime i heard the voices of my lovable ifa fad n ayun, my sisturs fadz n neya, my ayang amir n my b zal...i so wana mit thm. coz u neva knw whn wil b the last time. its not like im feeling lost, i knw where i stand but i fell so blurr. its like one big blur. its like im walkin along a path but i dnt knw where it leads me...worse i dnt knw where it starts. i just keep on walking. isit the time of the month? (no lah not pms u pervs) jus tha mood thts not ther. yes i do smile n laugh but its not whole heartedly. dnt get me wrng, its str8 frm the heart but its short.
when u thnk u need to b alone, u dnt want it. u wnt ur love ones to b bside u. to just sit talk stare n cozied up among each other n just listen to tha music of nature. mayb thts wat i need for the mo? why am i so bored? why m i not in the groove?
to think tht i hav no problem...i do. to think tht my life is boring...hell no. to think tht im not loved...im love by my family. i love myself. but y do i feel so introverted, withdrawn n apathetic? i have ZERO motivation in anythng i do.
yes i do mit the love ones yest. we slack n dance a lil. but i wasnt in the groove of it. yes we laugh smile n joked but it wasnt juz there.
mayb i feel introverted coz im tired of bein jobless n mujhse manzil ki kahan sharoor hai?
mayb i feel withdrawn coz i cnt express my lov n evrytym i read tha blog i felt so ugh~?
mayb i feel apathetic coz im juz not motivated n bored?
haiz. juz hope it wil go away. i wana spent my short period of life with love ones fully. i wana spent quality fun time wif dphat. i wana make full use of the the 2 mths tht im gona spent wif amir coz hes leaving n leading a man life soon. i wana spent time wif my darling babe, wanie, for all the lost times we missed. wana catch up time wif ex phat inc crews..so much to do so little time so dont knw where to start.....
in the midst of a heavy fog, im lost. finding my way thru i need a helping hand but when my arms are out stretched...theres no one holding it.
toodles
mizbithaqueen
p.s:
My knees start to shake,
When your in sight.
My mind is filled with wonder,
My heart with delight.
When will this feeling stop?
When did it start?
How can I listen to my head,
Without breaking my heart?
I'm so confused.
What should I do?
I can't think of anyone,
Except you.
Should I ingore you,
Or just give you time?
I lose my train of thought,
My heart controls my mind.
you stole my heart,and made me love you. but you wont love me back,and it leaves me blue.
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