gawd~ wat is happening really...its kinda lyk got worse doncha thnk so..first it started out as a lame prank thn it weaves into somethng complicated. but if i break it dwn to my own analysis, it all cums back to the lame prank. sheesh~
seriously, i love dphat. so much tht words cant explain. the nearest i cn go wif words are tht if one day i dnt mit up wif u ppl, i go crazy. seriously...i b all worried up. i guess its the motherly side of cancerian. haiz.
remeber tha tyme i said tht theres somthng amiss abt the whole collab thingy btwn ydc n phat inc. well, i guess its stil ther. but what? eventho now we bonded big tym, somethng is amiss but im not gona crack my brain thinking bout it coz i knw tht matter will arise.
the thing thts been racing in my mind is abt ppl having tha nerve to leave tha family? cn tht b done? if u any1 wanna leave tha family wif tha reasons tht thy r tha cause, thn ur wrong. seriously, y wud it cross ur mind tht by walking away problems r solved. put urself together n face tha problem. it hurts to c love ones gg away. hurts so much. so much tht its worse tht death. coz u hav to go thru living wif a loss. you know a poet, umrao jaan ada, once said "why throw stones at the scars when it already hurt so much". if any of u leave, thts e effect u gona giv to the rest. we hav each otha only. please dnt leave any of u~
i so need a hug frm each one of you, im not breaking down but im missing you all. a kiss from each of you to show tht u care. a smile to show tht we care. laughter to show the compassion we hav.
m miting u guys lata. so cant wait.
toodles
mizbithaqueen
p.s: im so hating u guys this very moment! I HATE U GUYS FOR MAKING ME MISS U GUYS SO MUCH!!!
p.s.s.: over tha days im getting over you but sumthng to share...
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