so i didnt post for a few days. well i was feelin kinda missin u knw. tht certain sum1 wasnt ard. so i wz feelin down. told fad wat happen. i knw i cn trust him in this issue. he shared wif me his. hehe. so kiter ada secret anak dara btwn us. shhhh~
but thn nw im hating the feelin im facing. ceh! ok, im seeing sum1 but tht certain sum1 dnt knw tht im seeing. its more of a closet case. crush? mayb. love? i dnt knw. haix.
ok what do u feel whn tha certain sum1 u lyk, is liking sumbody else but tht sumbody else not really into the certain sum1? bingit kan. nk kata jeloz...ntah eh? marah? most definitely. but hey if i wana keep this closet love gg on, i cn die. but if i wana forget it n move on, susah giler. mcm mana nak elak pun mesti bersemuka dgn org tu. confirm boleh jadi gilernya. apalah nasib. always fall for the wrong person. wat hav i done to desrve this? i think i dserve betta but sum how i always fall into this hellhole. gawd, sumbody gotta help me. but who?
btw, darling babe is back frm kl. yg mepeknya, she cn spend lyk fire shoppin at kl, she didnt get anything for me. rabakkn! furthermore she stil hav the nerve to tell me tht. mak~ sundalanz. ouhya, frendy baby n amir sayang back frm wher thy left home. indo n malaysia respectively. as usual, frendy jadik makin kecoh. haha. katanya windu kat kitorang. aww~ but wth, we hav tht effect on people. amir team won at tha soccer match. 5-4. he scored twice. u rawkz.
so yest was more lyk a slackin day. heh. evry1 was tired. sum didnt make it. eg.
- ifa apparently wana stay home, coz mummy wana go for haji. she wana b an angel for tha day.
- frazze fell sick so stay at home. tc aaite darl.
- fadz gotta work. imagine frm 8am-11pm. boleh patah kaki.
- fad got guard duty. it happens once a week.
- kidd ntah kemana. keje gaknya.
- shida gotta wrk. n guess wat, she cnt make it on the 15th jan.
- nurul as usual mcm biskut. skejap ada skejap tkde.
so its left with tha rest of us. but stil kecoh mautz. ketawa tk ingat dunia jugak. but im getting bored wif tha same routine. i proposed tht whueva cn choreograph, get a piece thy lyk n cum up wif steps, thn we combined. but mcm bebual sorang jek. only me n ayun jek up for it. ceh kene reject lah kn. tk guna.
aniwaes, meeting thm up tmr coz got xmas dance party at pasir ris. hope evry1 cn turn up. but i dnt knw abt maself. since m feelin down, mayb i wnt turn up. but to think tht fad ayun ifa n BFF gonna b there, i'll drag myself. klah, wana go freshen up.
toodles
mizbithaqueen
p.s: tht certain sum1 proudly says its U(somebody else) n ME. n im feelin tha ache. y? cn i get over it? but if tht sum1 is happy so be it. i'll just lay low n biarkan aku mencintaimu, izinkan aku menciantaimu walaupun engkau akan dimiliki.
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