ok. a few updates.
firstly, i got suspended frm wrk coz my blardy AM accused me of stealin the store money. wifout any proof n evidence. she rather believe tha stupid filipino whus the one tht has been creating trouble. gosh! eva since she join tha store, theres always a shortage n now i get all tha blame. aniwaes, if it gets worst, im gona report to MOM n tha police for accusing me wif no evidence.
secondly, my deep secret for tha mo tht was juz btwn me n fad is now knwn to three otha people. frazze ayun n zirah. but hey, i trust them in this issue. i knw they wont tell. i will tell him myself whn tha tym is ryt. heh. i dnt knw whn coz im scared if the truth is out, he will avoid me, worst still he will leave the group. cmon hes lyk mr r.a.c.e. reserved arrogant conceited n ego. ceh. but lately hes lyk so having cramps, ahaha cn c it on his face seh.
thirdly, im so jeloz of fad ryt now. hehe. hes lyk getting all tha guys attention seh. knw wat, he get to kiss anto n fiq on tha lips. no forced attached. hehehe. besh kan. better yet, they dont mind it at all. sampai amik gambar smua. i gues its kinda retribution for me you knw. yelah g mos ngan fad on his berfdae but i got all tha attention, now its his turn, good for u darl tht u havin all e fun in tha world now. anto n fiq is lyk so cute lah. tkleh angz....
fourthly, im beginning to feel tht dance prac is gettin redundant if we dnt do sumthng abt it. i mean we had fun but the steps we dance to its always tha same. me ifa n ayun r gettin tired. dunno abt tha rest lah. eventho i came up wif a proposal, nobody like care. mak~ kene kejar dorang lah kan. penat jah oi. but i guess its gona b betta since me n ayun came up steps for tell me wait a minute n temperature. i told frazze amir n kidd to cum up wif sumthng too lar. ntah dorang dgr ke tak.
finally, i feel tht im kinda lost. i dnt knw if i really liked him or not.isit juz infatuation for sum1 like me whus craving for love. isit juz a physical attraction tht lead to a simple crush? or isit juz himwhu hav tht effect on ppl lyk me....haiz.
so near yet so far. how do i reach u eh? i wana tell u bt im scared. i dnt wana lose u lah. too early. wait till i get enuff. hah
klah. so gtg
toodles
mizbithaqueen
p.s: i thnk u knw but ur juz playin dumb. n even if u dnt, wil only tel u whn tha group split.
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